April 10 – I Haven’t Cried In Years……….

Posted: April 10, 2014 in Uncategorized
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I couldn’t work out yesterday. I couldn’t work out today… I was sad but for the first time in ages I was sad but my depression wasn’t back.

It was something worse… more horrible… more …. just horrible.

I can barely bring myself to type it, but I must vent.

Yesterday on my way home from work, I found a child throwing a helpless, 2 week old kitten in the air, it’s limp body hitting the pavement. I saw it the first time and she managed to throw its limp body in the air one last time before I could run over and stop her.

The entire bus stop watched, uncaring, unshocked – more confused by my actions than anything else. As I picked up the cat, broken and limp in my hands, the little girl, barely 4 years old, shouted “it’s not yours!” in Chinese. I shouted back “And it’s not fucking yours!” I walked the cat away and found a ledge to set it down on. Despite my efforts to comfort it, stroking it’s tiny little frame, ten minutes later it passed away, lying with me on the side of the road.

China has no real laws against animal abuse and many of these “nongming ren” as we say, roughly translates to country-folk as well as city dwellers have little or no respect for animal life.

I placed his tiny frame amongst the bushes outside my house yesterday and today place flowers on its body so it may leave this world with some dignity.

I yelled, I cried and I told my two cats at home that I loved them but I will never forget watching that little cat flying through the air, the child so carefree, as though it were a rag doll she was playing with. And most of all, though there was no specific moment where it went from limp and unflinching to passed-on – I’ll never forget the moment I realised it was over. The moment I saw the eyes, unblinking, the chest now unmoving, and as I lifted his tiny body in my hand to place him in the bushes, how the body was now totally disconnected.

It was a cruel and unnecessary end to a very beautiful animal. Something I couldn’t un-see and something which has given my April Pledge some pause….

Now to save from the ammunition for racist rhetoric, while China does find a lot of people with little respect for animals, there are also some real heroes out there like my Shanghainese friend Anna who is on TV advocating animal adoption and who, herself, fosters up to 40 animals at a time in her flat while she finds them loving new homes.

Sorry this one has been a downer but this moment really affected me and I don’t see it passing from my memory any time soon…

  1. Ice_Badger says:

    this is awful! well done for trying to stop it, and doing your best for the kitten!!

    “liking” the blog is not quite right, but I like that you tried, and looked after it as best you could!!
    I want to go home now and hug my cat…even though he would squirm!

  2. Ice_Badger says:

    hey, just checking in!
    are you ok, you have been in “radio silence” for months!
    hope all is well x

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